Cheers!

Happy Holiday! I get to find out next week so excited.
=] love my boyfriend and especially my family and friends. So grateful.
leave you off with a new hair and christmas picture.

Seasonal.

My in-laws and sister in law (hahaha) and I (too many and) went to Orlando outlet mall to shop, and we stopped by lancome and they had a sell going on for 2 lip gloss lipstick or lip pencil for 15 dollars and that was a deal. So me and his sister decided to get a pair. Ive been wanting lipstick for awhile, but nothing catches my attention. This is a nice pretty orange color. PERFECT FOR MY LIPS! Lancome packaging for their lippes are adorable.

Anyway, tons of great deals to going on at the outlet. So i am 19 weeks and only a week and 3 days i guess left to find out the sex of the baby, how exciting this is. I dont count this week cause if i do, it will seem longer and i will get angry, and will find an excuse just to go to the hospital and find out the sex there lol. Its almost Christmas and i bought my mom a grill cooker...one of those cookers that you buy for pancakes and eggs. Yes she wanted one so she could do hot pot on. funny.my belly is growing. You know how people say sometimes camera lies about peoples beauty well i think my camera lies to me about my belly, it actually looks a little larger than that. Ok just wanted to update, heading to the mall with babes other sister..and i forgot my eye shadow. fudge.

Xmas!

Christmas is around the corner, i don't care much about gifts at all, it doesnt hurt me hah.
i dont like spending money on other people who can afford stuff for themselves.
im just thinking about giving a gift to my mom and dad and thats about it idk.

Anyway, January 5th is when i find out if this muchkin is a boy or girl, i really want a boy but it doesnt matter, just a healthy baby. Thats my new year wish, a healthy chubby baby. lol.
Huy, im currently 18 going on 19 weeks. =] time flies by, but sometimes i dont see a bump at all. so it makes me feel like im not pregnant. but i will see it grow in januaray.

On the other news, i really want to shop, but than im like ughhhh shopping why when i have clothes i dont hardly wear only when me and firmin goes on a date. im debating if i should or not, maybe ill wait when the baby comes out. i really want some flats. i get a lot of headaches from time to time, but i always have when i knew i was pregnant. I need a hair cut but im just going to make it a simple cut.

Also, i hate american food hah, idk why but this baby wants some Asian food. this is a random blog. love you.

Lake Okeechobee.

Its been a while since ive been on here.
just felt a little lazy with this baby in my belly.
=] yep, me and babe are having a baby!
im about 4 months now,and things are getting a little better.

Anyway, me and firmin went on a roadtrip (as i would call it) to miami.
He had to do something for his dad, so i asked if i could come along because i always wanted to come but he never lets me. Hes been telling me about Lake Okeechobee and how if you park on the side of it you can see it, and im was excited to see it. i was prepared and everything, bringing my camera to take lots of picture but it turns out theres was nothing to take a picture of.

we left at 6pm and left lakeland at 7pm and didnt get to Clewiston till 10pm.
just a bunch of stops, but it was exciting. I kinda expected to see some strip club on the way and i told him lets play a game and see how many strip club we can spot.
He ruined it for me and told me that he doesn't think there is any strip club because its illegal here i guess. but i didn't know that, i swore i saw 2, but he says its a bar.

We slept at the Clewiston Walmarts parking lot, and the air was horrible. it was disgusting. The place just looked dirty.. i sound like a brat, but if you could of have seen the way the parking lot wasn't clean and even the inside also. It was a fun relaxing trip anyway.

Woke up at 6am and hit the road again. i think we got at Doral at 8am and left there to go back home at 11am and didn't reach lakeland till 3pm.
and FINALLY we stop at lake okeechobee, its gorgeous, even though we didn't see the whole thing we saw strips of it and firmin felt bad and wanted to stop and park so we could see the whole thing but i told him next time.


the baby bump thats finally showing this week
my chubby man who doesn't like to take pictures.
and the view of some of the lake pretttyyy.

almost to the point.

so close to let you guys know, some already know.
but i have to wait till i tell this one person.
im so exhausted.
the weather is nice and it brings a smile to my face.
i know corny.

Some Exciting News!

I have some exciting news to say,
but i feel like we are not ready to say yet.
its been a very hard week for me, but im glad at the end we both made a good decision.
im such a happy person right now, and i can not wait to spread the word out!
i love him so dearly.

Welcome back welcome back welcome back.

I am going to start painting again.
i finally found what i was searching for all along..

September!

So, yesterday gracie received her pride and joy and im so excited.
i proclaim myself as an aunty since she doesn't want me to be a god mother.
( she is going to realize one day i will be )
anyway, im so happy went to visit the little one today, and took thousands of pictures lol every moment of it.

she looks more like gracie and not joe.
aww shes adorable, cant wait till couple weeks go by so i can hold her.
too scared to hold her now cause shes a new toy, i dont want to scratch it.
..i didnt took many pictures of me and her cause i was capturin the joy lol.
i try to include myself in the picture but its just too scary.
any way she is just too precious

look at all that hair

rainy day.

new preview.

the lighting here are closer than i imagine.

Damn these days.

its almost September.
and this will be the 2nd post of august.
anyway, i bought this book to keep track of my money and where i spend it at.
and i am disappointed at myself.

on to some other news. finally my mother gave me a haircut, and its adorable. different but i like, but i need it cut again, i want the top to be more shorter and yesterday i recolored my hair, and it sucks...

i am tired.

too hot to even eat popsicle.

i thought ill give it a little update today.
since i have all these free time.
its hot like balls outside.
im ready to make our pond for firmins mother.
how sweet.
got a sweet deal going on yesterday.
100 g. for 40 bucks when it was for 70 something.
niiiiicceee.

you can never have too many white shirts.

where to start where to start.

hmm i have a day off today, so i thought i would catch up and blog with you.

=] summer is about to end, but everyday is a vacation day for me.

ive been thinking about my life and how i would want it to be, and i think i am going to do something about it instead of being a loser person in life, with a non-successful job.

i want to start school, i want to continue painting. just everything to make me happy.

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anywho..me and firmin went to bahama breeze two weekends ago i think, a week ago [my fave place to eat] and i was taking picture...i think my camera is the best thing ever lol. [useless rants]

he looks adorable.

gosh so many pictures to post, but ill post them another day. i need to create another photobucket so i can upload and post, or actually use my flicker instead.
anywho, im so tired, i cant post without falling asleep. to be continued...

here we go again.

im such a baby, maybe i need to learn to grow up..
i really wanted to know what was going to be said this morning.
if i didn't do anything wrong than whats the deal.
the life of a drama loser.

need to think about something else..

Bad dreams.

So i woke up around the time when the love was going to work, and i couldnt sleep.
i just kept thinking..i try not to, but i end up doing so.
im just so curious why does he act so distant from me the past couple of days.
im thinking its because hes tired of work and he knows he has to work.
anywho, he says nothing is wrong so i belive him.

but my mind doesnt want to belive that. it wants to belive something else, and i know he is not that type of person.
anywho, i feel asleep at 10am and woke up at 1pm.
around that time i had these bad dreams, stuff my mind wants to belive.
and oh man did i kick that girls ass!

i did a little research on why we have bad dreams.

1. Anxiety and Stress

Anxiety and stress, often as the result of a traumatic life event, are sometimes the cause of nightmares and bad dreams. According to the International Association for the Study of Dreams (IASD), a major surgery or illness, grieving over the loss of a loved one, and suffering or witnessing an assault or major accident can trigger bad dreams and nightmares. Post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) is also a common cause of recurrent nightmares.

Not all nightmare triggers have to be traumatic, however. Everyday stressors, such as job or financial anxiety, or major life transitions such as moving or divorce, can also cause nightmares.

[i did have anxiety wondering so damn much]

2. Spicy Foods

When and what we eat may affect our nighttime rest, if not our tendency toward bad dreams. A small study published in the International Journal of Psychophysiology had a group of healthy men eat spicy meals before bed on some evenings and compared their quality of sleep on nights where they had non-spiced meals. On the spicy nights, the subjects spent more time awake and had poorer quality sleep. The explanation is that spicy food can elevate body temperatures and thus disrupt sleep. This may also be the reason why some people report bad dreams when they eat too close to bedtime. Though few studies have looked at it, eating close to bedtime increases metabolism and brain activity and may prompt bad dreams or nightmares.

[im always eating spicky things at work...lol]

3. Fat Content of Food

Though far from conclusive, some research has indicated that the more high-fat food you consume during the day, the greater the chance that the amount and quality of your sleep may suffer. A small study published in 2007 in Psychological Reports found that the dreams of people who ate a high amount of organic food differed from those who ate “junk foods.” The authors hypothesize that certain foods may negatively influence dreaming.

[well, pizza is fatting..and so is zaxbys and chinese buffet..]

4. Alcohol

Though alcohol is a depressant that will help you fall asleep in the short term, once its effects wear off, it can cause you to wake up prematurely. Excess consumption can also lead to nightmares and bad sleep; nightmares are also a common occurrence for those going through alcohol withdrawal.

5. Drugs

Some drugs, including antidepressants, barbiturates, and narcotics, can cause nightmares as a side effect. For instance, a 2008 study published in the journal Pyschopharmacology looked at ketamine, a drug used in anesthesia and recreationally, and found that compared with a placebo, ketamine use resulted in more dream unpleasantness and increased the incidence of bad dreams. Similarly, anyone who has traveled to a country where malaria is endemic may have taken Lariam and had some interesting nightmares associated with it. Nightmares usually cease once the drug is cleared from the system.

6. Illness

Illnesses that include fever, such as the flu, can often trigger nightmares. And other sleeping disorders, including apnea and narcolepsy, may also increase the incidence of bad dreams and nightmares.
While bad dreams and nightmares are considered normal responses in dealing with everyday experiences, the IASD recommends consultation with a therapist if they last in intensity and severity. But trying to eliminate these six factors first may be the best place to start in your quest to sweeten your dreams and chase the nighttime demons away.

[yeah, 4-6 is ..yeah weird lol...so those are out of the options.]

the six reason why we have bad dreams courtesy of http://www.divinecaroline.com/22201/62493-six-reasons-dreams

anyway, atleast this made me laugh..huyy im ready to eat im starving. =]

Slow Jams.

Maxwell is back!
pretty wings is sad.
oh jeeze.
i love slow jams, i think its the best thing ever lol. im a big fan of it
my all time favorite is IMX-beautiful



i am hungry. i love him so dearly, i wanna know whats on his mind.

HAPPY LATE 1 YEAR!

oh yeah its been a year now since i have been on blogger. =]
yay, but its been 5 years since i had xanga 04-08
than i moved on to this site.
woo way to go for me.
www.xanga.com/happily_tru

My power.

4th of july picture right after the rain @ lake hollingsworth, i love this man.p.s. no photoshop either, nice blue sky ;] So, i think i have this awesome power. i kinda think im blessed with this awesome power lol.the power of knowing the feelings of people.idk, but i can sense peoples energy orbfor example sad or happy, mad or anythinglol maybe i cant sense it but i know i might have this gift lol. so last night, the love was telling me life crisis, and i just got frustrated with my own.than everything went down hill, he has been quite the whole night and the whole time while wewent out to eat.and i dont even know whats wrong with himwas it something i said that made him act like this?idk, but im kinda upset knowing someone i care about has an issue and its bothering himmaybe he dosen't, maybe he was just tired... anywho, i miss my bestfriend, my ying and my yang..=[ sucks that she left me, tashana....come back and lets get sushi.i cant function without her..aww i wanna cry.. another subject,i need to continue to work with arti feel like i have neglected it and don't care in the world for it...its my passion and i want to get notice as an art prodigy. ;]but i have no place to do so. life sucks, i want it to turn around, time to grow up and face the crap.i love him.and i love you.=]

sleeping beauty.

oh gosh im so pooped.

thank god we had a 2 day off.

Happy late 4th of july.

=] took firmin to my aunts house.

they were throwing a retirement party for my grandpa.

and that experience didn't go so well.

everyone was looking, but thats all asian people. =]

i felt sorry for him so we left, i didnt meant to make him feel so uncomfortable.

anyway, atleast i had fun with him..

Again.

huy, here again..
alone.
.....

Post whore.

Man, ive been wanting to post happen to me throughout the days, but i just seem to get lazy.

im tryin to relax before i go to work again at 5.

ugh post later. picture of diamond!

happy birthday ryan..

Review: L.A. color 5 metallic eyeshadow.

i went to the dollar store yesterday, and i bought the 5 metallic eyeshadow in Tease.

im in love with it.

i also bought the elf all over face brush, its just a nice red velvet cake look color. feels wonder.

anyway i give the shadow it a 3/5.

pro:

very nice nice nice pigmented colors.

cons:

the blue and green could be better. imo.

i wanted to see if the product would last and shade to fade.

so from the time i got ready for work which is at 9 am to the time im on break,

it past my test.

oh boy, i love the pink, its a perfect shade. =]

but anyway i would rec-commend this 1.50 product for anyone on a budget.

adore.

i love him..

Collasped.

i wonder if the sun rises up tommorow will it be a happy sun or a gloomy sun.
or if the moon glows tonight will it glow tommorow....

Siick minded.

im sick. blah.
me and the love are ok.
just some mistake that are meant to be learned.

Gracie is about to pop out that baby and i can't belive its been like 9 months already.
wow.

cleaned his room and its hot and i need a shower.

Crying makes pretty girls ugly.

lol, well that is true.

I want to apologize to everyone.
i didnt mean to broadcast my problems out there.
i like to blog and relieve some of my sadness.

i just ate a popsicle and now im chill at the moment, thanks for everyones helping-ness.

in no good shape.

i feel like i am useless at the moment, all i could think of is why.
im sorry for last night.
the past is the past.
sorry about the future.
lets work it out, don't give up please.

im hungerless.
its so hard..
i just cant focus on anything but to make you happy again.

hurt.

im so hurt, i love him so much and i cant loose him.
he thinks im talking to someone else, but why would i?
i have no one else to talk to..

he broke my phone last night cause he was so mad at me.

baby, i love you so much..
who would i want to be with besides you?
your everything to me and i care about you a lot.

im really hurt.

here we go again.

hes upset with me and i dont know why...

Misses Fix it.

I fixed my camera thanks to the forum of trouble shooting.
The prooblem was that when i turned on my camera, the shutter wouldnt expand and it would just try to find itself to open itself but couldn't. do you understand?
anyway, it just kept telling me to turn off and on button to fix it, but that didn't work, i just pressed down on the lens when the power was off
and BOOM! it just click right in place.

=] so now im excited and ready to take pictures lol. when baby gets here he is going to wonder why i am here. =] well i can't help myself....i love my new BFF lol...

Onto some other news.
went to the dollar store the other day. (i am the dollar junkie) and bought some L.A. Colors art decor. Since everyone is inlove with this i thought i would try it.

that was the only color they had, well i really wanted black but it just looks messy. =] so im excited to do designs. And i also went to walgreens and bought a nail polish Sinful Colors Prof in Euro Trash.

its a pretty champagne color...very neutural and light...since i don't paint my finger nails at all only my toe nails, i thought it was a perfect color for me.

I ran into Sally Hasen HD nail polish and omgoodness, that was amazing details later im very lazy.

TIME TO PAINT!

No!

im so upset.
i went to charge the battery for the camera
and i place the battery backk inside
and all of a sudden my camera does not work!

it shutters wont zoom out and it keeps telling me to turn the power on and off
and i know his niece did something.
omg, im so upset i wanted to take a picture
what the h man.

and where the fuck is my boyfriend at.

Oh dear. 101!

=] i guess i passed my 100th mark already lol. opps.
didn't really get to take a glance at it.
Anyway, YOUR TELLING ME THAT FOTD means FACE OF THE DAY! what the!

huyy, my boyfriend won't talk to me, it just gets me upset. instead he said he will be right back. So im layin in bed waiting for him to come back and also typing this while his niece is asking me to paint with her. Or else something bad is going to happen.

I tried teaching her patient but this girl dosen't understand what that means. we went around town, visit my love of my life TASHANA and just talked to her. shes leaving again tommorow to sign up school for the fall. anywho, went to the dollar market to get a brush or a comb since i burned mine with the blow dryer. -.-; this little girl is on my nerves, trying to black mail me JESUS..ex: im going to tell firmin about your other boyfriend (clearly i don't last time she named him Genisis, so i told her Sega Genisis, and she was like yeah)

sorry for the interuption, ill be back.

Brr..

oh gosh i am so cold. brrr.
FYI: FOTD = Fashion of the day not Photo of the day. lmao.. gosh im a dork
anyway...i have to make a review on revlon mix and mingle. WONDERS im telling you.

So me and shiloh went to Chucke Cheeses. and wow, she is big for her age compared to her other friends. lol.
im so tired. update later. love you boo

Review: Dollar Store Makeup

So yesterday, went to the Dollar tree and just went to shop and hoping i would find the L.A. color 5 color pallete but i did not, instead i just stubble on bronzer and lip gloss and nipple covers for a dollar. total was like i think 7 dollars. And i went again to the Dollar General found the 5 color metallic pallete (and i cant spell pallete) FYI: The dollar general is expensive than the dollar tree..if your on a budget you would like the dollar tree more.




Well thank god i only spent a dollar on these item. i tried swatching these bronzer and eyeshadow, and oh my, super glittery. the bronzer im not wowing for, it really dosent help much. i really can't tell. maybe if i put an undercoat for the shadow it will look better but we will see. also the other day i bought a makeup wipe for only a dollar at big lots. and it works wonders. they compared it to Ponds.



but i am impress with the lip gloss. details later. ;]

big eyes.

btw, i bought these awesome eyelashes at sally beauty for almost 5 dollars and they are called ardell tyra lashes and omg, its amazing.

Hauling away. but saving budget.

so ive been here at baby's house waiting for him to come home.
i figure since i dont have work and i have some of my clothing and hair products and make up here mine as well stay lol.

and i hope his mother don't mind, not like i do this all the time but i feel like im invading this house with my asian-ness.

So i took his niece, Shiloh, to the mall cause i wanted to go and adventure. theres a store there called Nova, and it had an 10" straighter just good for to go places just for 10 dollars, i was tempted to buy it but i just remeber what i lover would say why would you. anyway, they also have makeup and im like gahhhhhhhh oh and eye lashes...it was so ..sad.

but i thought about it again, and said well...before i buy the makeup and this striaghter let me do research and reviews and see if i could get my money worth. so i did. anyway..i bought scratch off for baby when he gets off work lol. im turning into OMI! but i just felt lucky..really lucky haha. and went to old navy and do some good old clearance shopping.

so my haul for today:



Ruffle Bikini bottom for only 3.97
i thought this was cute..the colors fit perfect, im a natural color kinda girl and hate when fabric has designs...its just too crazy. but i love it and dont know if i can even fit it. but it was a steal



red and white tanks for only $4.99
i couldnt pick what color, so i ask his niece and she said red...but i just took both because well it was a bargain.

anyway, i plan on back to the mall later and get a l.a. pallete just to test the color and they say it gives out a good pigmented color, so i dont know we will see.
and oh my, i have to go to the hair store and get those color contacts..i need to learn how to save

c/o 2009

so today and yesterday was my sister and amanda's graduation.

im so very proud of both of them and wish them the best of luck.

baby left me to cut hair..huyy

Oh lovey-dubey.

baby, you are amazing, and when i say amazing i say your awesome. =]

so..im so stoke that i have a camera lol, now i can take pictures of us every minutes. =] exciting.

and i love pictures of him, hes dead sexy lol.

this is my fave picture of him. i see his sweetness.

anyway. enough about him for now, i need to get a haircut before my sister's and cousin's graduation tommorow and saturday, thank god i took friday night and saturday night off. a whole lotta stress is release lol.

i wanna paint but im at babys house just laying down and typing this while hes at work, oh man do i miss him even when i saw him this morning. still you can miss someone in a min. =]

today, taking my little cousin to the park, should be fun, i love this new park in town.

its called common ground, and oh man, its amazing. they dont have the kind of equipment they have now when i was little. sucks.

he just told me this mornning that he is an ast. manager...and i didnt know that.

FOTD: out and about.

FOTD

my love since im with him 24/7 (almost)

on to other news. made 30 dollars today, work sucks..
i want this tablet, it just looks portable and just adorable. its cute, =] but idk about this, im still trying to look at review but the good thing is that if you buy the small size it comes with adobe and corel which is nice for the price of one. the small starts off at $99 and moves up to i think $129. and it comes in different colors.


baby is watching college hill and he wants the lesbo to do action but the guy is messing it up, he is so dumb. but i love this dork thats why he likes my dorky looks.

moving on to some serious issues.
i have to accomplish these 4 task
going to the doctor
finishing up my school
correcting my back
and
saving money.

and i average it out, i would have to save atleast $212 each week. harsh.
that means i would have to stop shopping for things i don't clearly need, stop eating out so much thats why i am fat, and conserve. these economics are hard out there.
finishing off for tonight
my condolence to mike tysons daughter.

Just a little post.

So before i go to work in like 25 mins.
i thought i would post a little bit.
=] im so excited, baby has a new job..
but that means i cant stroll by his job like i always do.
so i dropped him off work, idk why..he could of have drove himself to work.
but i did, and we were waiting, he looks hot in black, i like when he dresses up sexy lol. dresses up sexy for work.

and i feel like i havent even worked for days..
anyway i miss him and i hope that job doesnt pushes his buttons.

It pays more when your dead.

so one day at work, all my co workers were talking about death, and how they don't want their family to spend loads of money just on a funeral. and that was a pretty good thing. why spend more on a casket, why not make one.
Someone brought this up also, saying when your dead all your debt is pass on to the family member in line. mean your family has to take care of your problem. thats why life insurance is a good idea i guess. lol. anywho..

so basically, married and barried are the same thing. =]

so uhhh!!! i dunno what im doin.....

so yea uhh i got this chicks p/w and i wanna surprise her with a lil some some..... I LOVE HER SoOo SoOoO SoOoOo MUUUUCCCCCCHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! she's the best eva. for some reason she changed my heart when it comes to womens and the ones I date. from now on its strictly ASAINS, thats if she decides to get rid of me since I highly doubt that I will eva wanna leave her. oh my god she's getting sooo thiiicccckkkkkk, i guess its this bla(!< di(!< huhh!!! she just noticed that tooo and said that its for sure the bla(!< di(!<. well thats all i'm hungry so peace out....

baby.

Picture perfect.

=] i got a new camera.
by using the macys vending machine lol.
and baby let me grab one. oh i love you.
its a sony dscw290

and its amazing. now i can take pictures!




and we also played lotto. =] and won 13 dollars.


...its raining out again...but hey i love it.

Flaunt them.

so im obsess with false eyelashes..oh man aren't they the best thing in the world, it just enhances my eye and im just about to get up and buy some color contacts..
=] what a great material.

Happy birthday baby!

happy birthday baby!

beautiful lips.

still may. my doggu just woke up from her nap. cute.
babys birthday is this sat.
have no clue what to give him.

so today i just pickedup a camera and starting taking pictures.
why am i not photogentic no more. havent touch a cam in a long time.






and the flowers baby gave me for my birthday that are now dead.

Kambodia heels?

did jessica simpson misspell Cambodia?
coming from a cambodian individual, i just think she mistakin the K for the C.
after all is it chickin or is it fish?
the heels still look niice,

i bought new sandals again today at macys, and new lipstick.
im tired, and i love my baby. =]

Huy.

another update.
so much has been going on, and only i can tell you.
i think my teeth are crooked.
i bought some michale kors sandals in black, they didn't have it in my size for clear but i will get the clear ones.


my best friend in the whole wide world is back!
mother day is around the corner.
babys birthday is around the corner and i know what and how to surprise him.
=]

im in his house waiting for him to come home, he doesnt have his phone on him so i have no clue where he went and i dont care if he gets mad at me cause i am here.
im upset.

New hair.

Blue Black. not what i expected i kinda wanted to see more blue than a plain ole black also, its still the same color hair i had except its just black and no brown.
i also highlighted my hair, ehhh it was ok, i need more color, i guess im gonna go with blue highlights instead of the brown and blonde kinda thing.