Saturday, July 25, 2009

you can never have too many white shirts.

where to start where to start.
hmm i have a day off today, so i thought i would catch up and blog with you.
=] summer is about to end, but everyday is a vacation day for me.
ive been thinking about my life and how i would want it to be, and i think i am going to do something about it instead of being a loser person in life, with a non-successful job.
i want to start school, i want to continue painting. just everything to make me happy.
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anywho..me and firmin went to bahama breeze two weekends ago i think, a week ago [my fave place to eat] and i was taking picture...i think my camera is the best thing ever lol. [useless rants]

he looks adorable.

gosh so many pictures to post, but ill post them another day. i need to create another photobucket so i can upload and post, or actually use my flicker instead.
anywho, im so tired, i cant post without falling asleep. to be continued...

Sunday, July 12, 2009

here we go again.

im such a baby, maybe i need to learn to grow up..
i really wanted to know what was going to be said this morning.
if i didn't do anything wrong than whats the deal.
the life of a drama loser.

need to think about something else..

Saturday, July 11, 2009

Bad dreams.

So i woke up around the time when the love was going to work, and i couldnt sleep.
i just kept thinking..i try not to, but i end up doing so.
im just so curious why does he act so distant from me the past couple of days.
im thinking its because hes tired of work and he knows he has to work.
anywho, he says nothing is wrong so i belive him.

but my mind doesnt want to belive that. it wants to belive something else, and i know he is not that type of person.
anywho, i feel asleep at 10am and woke up at 1pm.
around that time i had these bad dreams, stuff my mind wants to belive.
and oh man did i kick that girls ass!

i did a little research on why we have bad dreams.

1. Anxiety and Stress

Anxiety and stress, often as the result of a traumatic life event, are sometimes the cause of nightmares and bad dreams. According to the International Association for the Study of Dreams (IASD), a major surgery or illness, grieving over the loss of a loved one, and suffering or witnessing an assault or major accident can trigger bad dreams and nightmares. Post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) is also a common cause of recurrent nightmares.

Not all nightmare triggers have to be traumatic, however. Everyday stressors, such as job or financial anxiety, or major life transitions such as moving or divorce, can also cause nightmares.

[i did have anxiety wondering so damn much]

2. Spicy Foods

When and what we eat may affect our nighttime rest, if not our tendency toward bad dreams. A small study published in the International Journal of Psychophysiology had a group of healthy men eat spicy meals before bed on some evenings and compared their quality of sleep on nights where they had non-spiced meals. On the spicy nights, the subjects spent more time awake and had poorer quality sleep. The explanation is that spicy food can elevate body temperatures and thus disrupt sleep. This may also be the reason why some people report bad dreams when they eat too close to bedtime. Though few studies have looked at it, eating close to bedtime increases metabolism and brain activity and may prompt bad dreams or nightmares.

[im always eating spicky things at work...lol]

3. Fat Content of Food

Though far from conclusive, some research has indicated that the more high-fat food you consume during the day, the greater the chance that the amount and quality of your sleep may suffer. A small study published in 2007 in Psychological Reports found that the dreams of people who ate a high amount of organic food differed from those who ate “junk foods.” The authors hypothesize that certain foods may negatively influence dreaming.

[well, pizza is fatting..and so is zaxbys and chinese buffet..]

4. Alcohol

Though alcohol is a depressant that will help you fall asleep in the short term, once its effects wear off, it can cause you to wake up prematurely. Excess consumption can also lead to nightmares and bad sleep; nightmares are also a common occurrence for those going through alcohol withdrawal.

5. Drugs

Some drugs, including antidepressants, barbiturates, and narcotics, can cause nightmares as a side effect. For instance, a 2008 study published in the journal Pyschopharmacology looked at ketamine, a drug used in anesthesia and recreationally, and found that compared with a placebo, ketamine use resulted in more dream unpleasantness and increased the incidence of bad dreams. Similarly, anyone who has traveled to a country where malaria is endemic may have taken Lariam and had some interesting nightmares associated with it. Nightmares usually cease once the drug is cleared from the system.

6. Illness

Illnesses that include fever, such as the flu, can often trigger nightmares. And other sleeping disorders, including apnea and narcolepsy, may also increase the incidence of bad dreams and nightmares.
While bad dreams and nightmares are considered normal responses in dealing with everyday experiences, the IASD recommends consultation with a therapist if they last in intensity and severity. But trying to eliminate these six factors first may be the best place to start in your quest to sweeten your dreams and chase the nighttime demons away.

[yeah, 4-6 is ..yeah weird lol...so those are out of the options.]

the six reason why we have bad dreams courtesy of http://www.divinecaroline.com/22201/62493-six-reasons-dreams

anyway, atleast this made me laugh..huyy im ready to eat im starving. =]

Slow Jams.

Maxwell is back!
pretty wings is sad.
oh jeeze.
i love slow jams, i think its the best thing ever lol. im a big fan of it
my all time favorite is IMX-beautiful



i am hungry. i love him so dearly, i wanna know whats on his mind.

Friday, July 10, 2009

HAPPY LATE 1 YEAR!

oh yeah its been a year now since i have been on blogger. =]
yay, but its been 5 years since i had xanga 04-08
than i moved on to this site.
woo way to go for me.
www.xanga.com/happily_tru

My power.

4th of july picture right after the rain @ lake hollingsworth, i love this man.
p.s. no photoshop either, nice blue sky ;]
So, i think i have this awesome power. i kinda think im blessed with this awesome power lol.
the power of knowing the feelings of people.
idk, but i can sense peoples energy orb
for example sad or happy, mad or anything
lol maybe i cant sense it but i know i might have this gift lol.
so last night, the love was telling me life crisis, and i just got frustrated with my own.
than everything went down hill, he has been quite the whole night and the whole time while we
went out to eat.
and i dont even know whats wrong with him
was it something i said that made him act like this?
idk, but im kinda upset knowing someone i care about has an issue and its bothering him
maybe he dosen't, maybe he was just tired...
anywho, i miss my bestfriend, my ying and my yang..
=[ sucks that she left me, tashana....
come back and lets get sushi.
i cant function without her..
aww i wanna cry..
another subject,
i need to continue to work with art
i feel like i have neglected it and don't care in the world for it...
its my passion and i want to get notice as an art prodigy. ;]
but i have no place to do so.
life sucks, i want it to turn around, time to grow up and face the crap.
i love him.
and i love you.
=]

Sunday, July 5, 2009

sleeping beauty.

oh gosh im so pooped.

thank god we had a 2 day off.

Happy late 4th of july.

=] took firmin to my aunts house.

they were throwing a retirement party for my grandpa.

and that experience didn't go so well.

everyone was looking, but thats all asian people. =]


i felt sorry for him so we left, i didnt meant to make him feel so uncomfortable.

anyway, atleast i had fun with him..